maybe you both need to write each other a letter or notes before an argument so that feelings aren't hurt? Rach I know you like to be in control, but maybe you need someone in your life to answer to when you harm? Maybe you need that for stability? You have been doing great hun, look at what you've come through, and you're still here.
I love you, i dont want to guilt you into not killing yourself, i don't think that's the way to go, because it will make you feel worse. But I do want to say, I believe you can do this. For yourself. not for Kelly, the kids or Keith, for you. Just like you made a promise to kill yourself, how about making a promise to never promise that again. How about promising to keep yourself as safe as sanity allows? Hold yourself accountable?
Love you Rach, mand x
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