i had similar issues going home from uni, my little brother took my room so i had nowhere and no privacy, last christmas it was hell, i had no where to go to cut no privacy i couldnt cope. then last summer same situation but i used it to help me, i managed all of summer si free, and i proved i could do it when i had to, so i should be able to do it back at uni. I've been si i free since last summer. Its as hard as hell and i crave it so much at times. But it can be done. like you said youve proved to yourself that you can do it as you did it over xmas, its easy to fall back into it when your away from family etc but dont let it get the better of you.
They wont through you off the course, as long as you are trying to get the better of it.
theres nothing wrong with not wanting to stop cutting. no one can force you to stop. you say you dont think you can handle uni and everything without cutting but have you tried?
overall i feel alot more stable when it comes to uni work and life at uni now im not si'ing, i feel that it restricted so much of what i did before.
it will be hard to adjust, but you have to weigh up the benefits of self harming against the negatives and see what you should do.
sorry for long rambly message
good luck
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