crap i am at work right now and having to put on this little happy face is so draining
i am not doing very well handling triggers atm
i have been here less than 2 hours and i already had to go out to my car to si once
i have never done that before :/
i just feel really incompetent right now and the fact that my job is to take care of other people, be responsible for other human beings, is making me feel guilty because if i cant even help myself what good am i to others? will i even notice when they display antecedents if i am so distracted?
i am supposed to go stay with a friend this weekend and that is stressing me out too because when i start to feel unsafe all i want to do is be alone and not be around others and now i have to go be around people all weekend. i want to cancel but i did that last week and the week before and i am out of excuses and she just got into law school so i really should be at her party.
and i just realised that i am complaining about the stupidest things that arent even real problems how lame is that
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