When i was with my now ex boyfriend, We made a sort of deal that we would kill ourselves when i turned 40 (he's 7 years older than me) anyway we've broken up now, but i still don't really want to get past 40, i'm not sure i can even see myself making it that far.. but it's weird i'm never really feeling down when i think about it..
I think for various reasons i've got no inclination to plan too far.. I just about cope with going day to day without being scared of the prospect of being me for another 60 years or whatever life expectancy is these days...
It sounds like you are planning to convince yourself to stay alive and 10 years is a very long time, alot can and will happen in that time and you will grow and change as a person, so hopefully it will be for the better for you.. That being said even if you get 10 years down the line and still feel down there is no firm decision made by you on it, it's easy to plan for something so far off, but when it comes to it, things can be very different.. I hope you do convince yourself otherwise and that the next 10 years of your life are beautiful and happy.
Eclipse.
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