2 glasses of wine (doesn't seem to sit well with me at the moment - stupid girl for drinking anyway)
I got upset and then worked myself up into a state. I lost my best friend in the world to cancer a couple of months ago, and last night was one of the first times I've properly cried for her. She got me through all the dark times at uni, she has been here for me since and now she's gone.
I didn't go to work today - I felt physically and emotionally drained (and to be fair, fairly horrible from crying most of the night)
Does anyone/everyone get that empty dead feeling the day after you've cut/been very close to it/got yourself worked up into that kind of state??
I feel strangely calm, but in a calm/emotionally dead kind of way. I think it must be that the brain just has to shut off to protect itself - you know you could quite easily and quickly get worked up again....
I have to be careful this weekend - I'm away with 6 other girls (not generally good with all female company at the best of times) but I'm also in charge of cocktails. It's a hen weekend, so i must do my very best to stay fine - I desperately want to ruin it for anyone. No internet either - so I'm planning on taking pen and paper in case i get bad - got to get it all out in some way. Anyone have any other thoughts/ suggestions on anything i've said above? Input ALWAYS welcome
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Ta for the hugs - need them.
xx