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anonymous coward · 03-01-2008, 01:56 AM

I hear where you're coming from. Before 2 weeks ago, the last time I had SIed was when I was 21 - and that was just a slip up after 4 years. Now I'm 26, without a roommate and support network for the first time in forever, and I'm finding myself in the same place when I was 17 - when I was SI'ing on a regular basis.

It seems that all the friends that I normally go to about this are all exceptionally busy going about their lives and I really don't want to burden them with my problems. I mean, when I look at it from their shoes, it's truly a burden that I wouldn't want to be saddled with.

Basically, it's 7:40 PM and, if I keep myself busy on here until 9:00 PM, it'll be the 5th night in total I haven't SI'ed since the Sunday before Christmas - and those nights were because I slept at my parents' house. Even worse: of those nights 4 nights when I didn't SI, I was drunk when I fell asleep 3 out of 4 times.

I really had a purpose in here somewhere, but it seems to have gotten lost in my rambling. But, if you get this far, PM me sometime. I know this seems silly, but it actually helps to know that there are other adults who struggle with the exact same things I struggle with - and stumble in the same places that I stumble. I mean, really, I never thought I'd be doing this again at 26 when I was 17.

03-01-2008, 01:56 AM	#7
anonymous coward Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: Southeast Michigan	Sorry, this just got long... I hear where you're coming from. Before 2 weeks ago, the last time I had SIed was when I was 21 - and that was just a slip up after 4 years. Now I'm 26, without a roommate and support network for the first time in forever, and I'm finding myself in the same place when I was 17 - when I was SI'ing on a regular basis. It seems that all the friends that I normally go to about this are all exceptionally busy going about their lives and I really don't want to burden them with my problems. I mean, when I look at it from their shoes, it's truly a burden that I wouldn't want to be saddled with. Basically, it's 7:40 PM and, if I keep myself busy on here until 9:00 PM, it'll be the 5th night in total I haven't SI'ed since the Sunday before Christmas - and those nights were because I slept at my parents' house. Even worse: of those nights 4 nights when I didn't SI, I was drunk when I fell asleep 3 out of 4 times. I really had a purpose in here somewhere, but it seems to have gotten lost in my rambling. But, if you get this far, PM me sometime. I know this seems silly, but it actually helps to know that there are other adults who struggle with the exact same things I struggle with - and stumble in the same places that I stumble. I mean, really, I never thought I'd be doing this again at 26 when I was 17.