as things are right now im just not ready to stop cutting. but no one will see it. they are threatening me with the hospital etc, but that doesnt help me at all. the only reason i have to stop for now is my bf visiting this weekend. but after that then what. then im holding everything to get into SAFE ALternatives. otherwise i cant imagine anything stopping me. i just get pissed and am like stop telling me to stop i dont want to. i still get too much benefit from it.
does anyone understand?
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