thanks for all the encouragement.
scarlett -- you hit the proverbial nail on the head! I am thoroughly convinced that I have depersonalization disorder and that SIB is just my attempt to keep things real.
on that note, I actually *have* begun writing, again. I usually write blogs online, but these ones I keep in a hand-written journal... completely honest. I think I secretly wish someone would find them and finally do something. :/
I wrote in
another thread about how I'm actually a Mental Health professional
(*gasp*, I know), spending my days & nights helping everyone else with issues like these, but can't -forthelifeofme- get the help I need, myself...
*sigh*