i tried all my distraction stuff. gave my stuffed monkey a washing, ate, wrote, came here, watched tv, etc. tried calling a hotline who referred me somewhere else who couldnt help me. tried calling the case manager oncall, same story. if i could just get out of my building i would cut for sure, but staff knows that so is keeping close tabs on me. i might try to take my night meds early and just go to sleep, but then when i wake up who's to say things will be any better. just i guess i wont have the option to go out. sigh.
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