[*phantom*]

after i came out of the pav today,
i sat down on the bench by the bus stop,
and i cried.
alot.
and then i got on the bus.
and i cried some more.
and then i wiped my eyes.
and i got off the bus.
and i came into my house.
and i acted like everything was fine.
and then when i came in,
all i could think about was suicide.
but don't worry.
i won't do it.
because then i wouldn't be able,
to sort it all out.
and prove everyone wrong.
and be a whole new person.
screw all those people who judged me.
i'm going to have a happy year.
2008 is going to be good.
it has to be.
because screw all of the people who hold me back.
thankyou.
x