This sounds ever so familiar. When I was 18 I said I would live until 25 and then that's it. A lot of things have changed since then. I'm 22 now and a very different person from who I was when I made that decision. I can't offer any definite reassurance that things will change for you like they did for me, but I will say that 10 years is a long time. By then, your situation is likely to have changed, and you're likely to have changed as a person. There's nothing we can say for sure in this world. So instead of thinking that you have 10 years to convince yourself otherwise, just let life take its course. The decision to live on will not come suddenly one day, but with any luck, living will become more and more acceptable, until one day, when you won't even entertain the idea of ending it all.
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