i keep heariing someone telling me that everyone wants me dead and they want to kill me. And its true. But i am gonna kill myself to save everyone else from doing it.
This person(i only hear them, i dont know who it is) is persuding me to do it and they are going to help me because they are my friend and they assure me its gonna work.
I dunt know why everyone wants me dead .. i just dont
i have planned it out. i just dont know wat to do. i feel so crap and everythings a mess
Update:
First, im really sorry im asking for more help. i realy am.
But. i went to see my psych today. and im nto allowed on medication UNLESS i bring my mum along so she can look after the medication as there is a risk of me o/ding, which i have NEVER done on psychitaric medication. Which is tottally out of the question. She calls me a loony for **** sake. And im not allowed on medication because i drink and take drugs ONCE A WEEK!
Also, he wanted to talk about my relationship with my mam, which i really dont have the energy for.
So to conclude, im not allowed meds unless i bring my mam which isnt gonna happen, i dont go to CAMHS anymore unless i get another referal. Theres a chance i can get medication of my GP but i dont think he will perscribe me it.
Im supposed to have a think.. but really. theres not much i can do.
so im supposed to deal with this all on my own. I told you he wants me dead :|
x
oh and he said i probabaly cant get refared to the adult service cos im 9 months too young
Another update:
Wwent to see my GP, and hes put me on aripiprazole and lamotrigine again, so hopefully things will get better. Im going back in 2 weeks too, and i can ring him when things get bad. My friend is looking after my meds and giving me one a day. It went well. Im glad :)