I count because stopping cutting was the ahrdest thing i have ever had to do and each day i go without is a small victory. I am over 2 years now, but still now the exact date (812 days ago). I do that to remind myself how far i've come. i wish i could just forget about ever cutting, but the truth it, i am who i am because of what i've been through (good and bad) and i am proud of who i am. Dismissing part of my past would be being ashamed of it. and while i would never cut again, i know that at the time it saved my life. I count to show myself that I am ok and will always be. it;s jsut something that helps me
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