*Holds you tight*
I am so sorry that this time of year brings you so much pain and bad memories. The memories and pain of this may never fully go away and probaly will remain a part of you, but with time and the right support the intensity and rawness of it will go away. Have you ever spoken to a counsellor or anyone about this to try and work through it so you are able to cope with it better. I know its hard to accept but at the time you did what you had to at the time to deal with this and survive. Its understandable you feel that way towards your son, seeing him probaly brings up alot of feelings for you but don't be hard on yourself you are doing the best you can. Please be gentle with yourself and know that we are all here for you through this hard time. You can and will get through this. If you ever need to talk feel free to PM me. Take care of yourself and stay safe
Kat xxx
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