I can't diagnose you, but one thing that stands out for me in what you've written is that you're very sensitive. That's ok. Many other people are too. Including me. :) Sensitivity and insecurity can very easily tip into something deeper, closer to paranoia, and maybe that's what you're scared of?
You say also that you have a tendency to make small things appear bigger in your mind.
What helps me manage my tendency to paranoia is to work it through in therapy, getting at the root of my anxieties and insecurities and soothing the rawness I feel in the world. In my case reality checking in the present helps - knowing that it's not like the past when people did hurt me.
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