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Advice please.
On Thursday morning I tried to take a overdose. My partner caught me and babysat me all day making sure I didn't do anything. By the time it was nigh time she said I needed to ring the emergency mental health team. I rang them and they told me if I was unable to keep myself safe to go to A and E. We sat in a waiting room for 40 hours!
The first mental health people we seen said I needed blood work. That took around 10 hours.
Then the next mental health team I spoke to said I didnt need to be admitted even though I stated if I was to be let out I would be back in four hours because I would just take tablets as I felt sucicdal. The woman didnt chnage her mind and said if I wanted a second opnion I could have one. But to be admmited I needed to be under the home treatment team.
Cue another 10 hours. Got to see the third mental health team who I said the same thing to. They said they had no beds, not even in A and E and I would be sitting there for up to 2 weeks. I said fine as I dont feel safe going home.
Cue 10 hours later I got told I could go to a crisis house. I agreed as I was so tired by this point.
Another 10 hours later they said I could go and discharged me. I have seen the mental health team twice whilst here and asked to be put on the waiting list for a bed as I still feel unsafe and suicidal. They have not done this and keep saying take it one day at a time. I am only supposed to be at the crisis house for five days but the support worker who works here has extended it as she worried about me.
Tonight has been the worst night and I have ended up self harming (Its not bad at all but its making me want to do more)
I am exhausted, I am tired and I cant keep doing this anymore. Why wont they listen to me and what can I say to make them listen?
Any advice wecome please. I am meant to be seeing them again tomorrow.
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