Louise, sweetheart, I hope you have a good day tomorrow, wherever you may be. I tell Jake that he can talk to you whenever he feels alone, or whatever, and that you'll always be watching over him. Please, sweetheart, watch over him. I'm doing the best I can down here, but I'm not his mum. He's lost his mum, and suffered such awful things from his dad, he's such a fighter, but at the same time I wonder if he's just too young to know what's going on.
I promised you I'd look after him, sweetheart, when I became his godmother, and I'm trying, I really am, I'm supporting him the best that I can, and yet I'm struggling with myself right now. I'm going to get the help that I need after Christmas, sweetheart, because he needs me and I'm not going to let him down, yet I can't help but wonder if that's not why you went and tried to get the help that you did, the help that ended up being your downfall.
Enough of the news now though, sweetheart. I want you to know just how much I miss you at this time of year especially. At least you've got grandad to keep you company up there now, sweetheart. I love you both eternally, and maybe one day I'll be able to see you both again.
Have a good one for me.
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