It's ok, friend, I didn't know either. As my headspace is getting clearer I realize that maybe I am scared being so eerily calm at having these thoughts. Thing is, my life is not in a good spot. I lost my job and I'm back living at my folks who are themsleves going trough a rough patch. Their marriage is in a bad spot and I fought with my father who I used to love and admire a lot, but now I am growing disillusioned. It hurts a lot that I feel like that, but I don't know how to process it.
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