[not_so_insig]

My cat was put to sleep after a short illness yesterday. The vet said he most likely had cancer. He was only 5 so not terribly old. As detailed in a previous thread he was the only thing that kept me going sometimes. But now I don't have anything and rn I can't see the point.

My dad's cousin died on my birthday so I was sad about that too. Like my cat she had cancer too.

I am just naturally very upset and took prn twice yesterday (not an OD but within prescribed limits). I can't cook because my concentration is so shit atm I would be liable to cause a fire.

How do I live? I plan on contacting my cpn on Monday as my cat used to like her and he always had a fuss from her. I just really want to end my life. Rn I feel physically wobbly which isn't helping.