what would happen if you started letting out some of your emotions with others irl and started being a bit less private? that might actually help you build some relationships and friendships. it is pretty hard to be friends with someone who never shares anything.
is your schedule at work a typical weekday during the day type of job? we would guess if so that local acting and plays would definitely be able to work around that. if not, maybe you could talk to your manager about switching your schedule around?
what would make you feel comfortable talking to someone and working on building friendships with them?
are there other hobbies and things you are interested in? again same thing where it might take a bit of effort and a bit of going out of your comfort zone, which can absolutely be difficult when you work long hours and are physically and mentally exhausted. but it sounds like it might be something important enough to you to figure out how to push through for.
no requirement to answer any of these, just some thoughts and questions that might help in terms of ways to start to work on getting that connection that it sounds like you desperately want.
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