I'm more anxious and panicky a lot of the day and night now. There was a long period of time when I woke up last night and just couldn't sleep because I was so anxious. Then it starts again when it's coming up for the time to get out of bed. Then in between activities and even during activities. I hate when it starts to get darker. I'm awake earlier in the morning but afraid to get up in case it makes me more tired earlier in the evening. I am not going to fall back into spending 36 hours in bed and getting up at irregular times so why am I anxious about tiredness and going to bed? My brain needs to sort itself out. I just wish I didn't feel so tired early on. I'm scared of continuing to live, in general not just the sleep thing. Even trying to take things a minute at a time.
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