Groggynes was stil a thing this morning but was easier to push through and get up.
Lots of rage /distres this morning that I wanted to take out on myself / express by being self destructive. If I still had the blade I would have harmed properly. Was thinking of what else I could use to harm myself but nothing was as good as the blade I accidentally threw out so couldn't decide.
I scratched myself a little bit and then managed to channel the energy into productivity. First into making coffee and breakfast and doing morning routine and then I worked on my health passport template thing. Listened to some high energy music as well.
Then went out for lunch at garden centre. Now home and there is storm in my head of muffled voices and an urge to hurt myself to shut them up. But also very tired and Inna bit of pain so going to try and get a nap. Hopefully some rest will make the Strom easier to deal with.
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