Having a bad day with my FND today. Aching all over with stiff locked up muscles. Still feeling a bit Covidy. Mentally kind of numb /dissociative not really in touch with any emotion or feeling like engaging with anything.
In the meantime breathing wise I know what to do. Do the breathing exercises take my inhalers, monitor my peak flow etc. I know the signs that I have to call for help it's just difficult when it's borderline.
Mentally that's a bit harder as still waiting to hear from neuropsychology after being referred back and dont have any appointments in place in the short term. I guess keep calling crisis charity phoneline if I need to and First Response if I feel in danger of acting on thoughts. And doing grounding and other coping techniques when I have the energy.
Should try reaching out to GP because I could double check referral happened as well as try getting some support (I did check with receptionist and she said it looked like it had but would be good to hear it from Dr A). If all else fails on reaching out to GP front I have an appointment for 3rd November. It's a month away but it's something. I don't know if I want to be referred to CMHT depends partly on how fast neuropsychology get back back to me and how things develop in general.
Looking forward to chatting to OT on Thursday she is great.
Really hoping breast clinic says it's all benign, I don't know how I would handle cancer on top of everything else.
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