[long road]

Things have been calmer mentallly at home. Still feel like there is a lot of emotion trapped under the surface that is all going to burst out with no warning at some point. Trying to access small bits and express the emotion to stop that happening bit not entirely sure how to.

Had some bad dreams though of hospital.

Also had a dream I was gutted hadn't happened when I woke up where my old therapist human called me an d agreed to see me.

I feel a little less scared of the asthma after this admission and having had scans, not needed a nebuliser since Tuessday night and not had symptoms flare since Thursday afternoon, plus feel I have a better grasp of respiratory physio exercises and generally having a team around me and outpatient follow up planned helps. But there is still some anxiety there.