Well at least I'm making sense and not sounding strange or outlandish. Distractions and methods to stay clean will only work if I try. The urge to cut is like an itch in my brain and I just want to scratch it to relieve the irritation (like stress/bad emotions).
I know what I need to work on now. Well, I've always known it, but saying it solidifies it in a way.
I think it'll just take time as does anything. I feel like me reaching out for help and even finding RYL is a step in a right direction, or maybe I'm just trying to make myself feel better. But it's also nice to have people who can understand me and not be judgmental or lecture me on why doing what I'm doing is bad and whatnot.
But I know for change, there needs to be action and I need to change my habits and ways. Sigh. It'll take time.
I am officially 1 day clean.
Last edited by wren_wyn : 07-08-2023 at 05:44 PM.
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