Re sometimes really not coping which bits in particular do you mean? Just would be good to have an outside perspective on bits I really seem to struggle with like if there is particular post. No worries if you aren't sure.
I guess I had set my bar of coping as haven't engaged in the harmful behaviours (suicide, self harm etc.). When really coping might include not getting into extreme distress / getting harm thoughts that you afraid you might act on. But I have been surviving those periods of extreme distress and not just shutting down or acting?
I think phoning is hard because of having to say out loud that I am struggling and have to deal with a receptionist. But also it's like I would say worsening mental health isn't routine so can wait three to four weeks but I don't want a same day appointment with just whoever is on duty. I only trust my GP with the mental health stuff, after some not as good experiences with other GPs. And I don't know if I can ask to be seen more urgently by my GP and find the idea of asking and not knowing if it's possible hard.
I think the easiest way to be seen more urgently but by my GP is a patient triage request online. And text is easier for me to communicate in, but it's knowing how much detail to put, because although the admin team aren't in charge of triaging these requests they do read them to make sure they are passed on to right place and mental health is quite privatw for me especially the feeling stuff that might not be there bits. Its a trust thing. And also It has a character limit so have to edit down what I need to say so it fits.
So like phone is harder but over quicker and I have full control of info to people other than GP as I only need to say worsening mental health
Patient triage is less control over who sees more detailed bits and takes longer to actually put together. But allows me to communicate more accurately with GP what is going on and stops me clamming up in a later appointment because GP already knows a bit. And means I am more likely to see GP I trust quicker.
And I don't know what is right and am sort of anxiously running through phone call scenario over and over or trying to work out what I feel able to right down and what key bits might be etc.
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