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long road · 19-06-2023, 08:42 PM

I am managing. Still in pain which won't be helping so going to have some ibuprofen.

I know talking to GP would be the sensible thing. I don't know why I am finding it so hard.

But I am having good moments in between and with venting here I am coping barely perhaps at times but I am coping. I was waiting to see if it got better. ISometimes it's just a blip and then I feel better. And I am not hallucinating really just struggling a bit with all this extra stress without the outlet of therapy. The hallucinations coming back was the thing I was afraid of and they seem to have dropped off, I am just left on high alert.

I don't know what GP could do. If I was properly hallucinating maybe I could get referred to see a psych for the first time in years and we could try and find an antipsychotic which wouldn't effect my prolactin levels. Not sure if one of those exists though. But you can bet if I do get an assessment the CMHT as things are now they will decide not to take me on just like 2016 and 2019. Because I won't be bad enough to meet their criteria. Maybe I could get referred back to my psychologist who I did the year and a half of therapy with but he is in neuro psychology and despite the extra stress I have been doing well with my FND so not sure I would qualify. I am meant to be getting EDMR from his service at some point though and a lot of the stress is asthma related.

Maybe I should just open a line of communication with GP and see what he says. Rather than thinking of all the ways asking for help would be futile. I am just not sure it's bad enough to ask for help and put myself through potential rejection from CMHT etc. Might try tomorrow.

Suicidal thought snad self harm thoughts pop up for me as a response to stress but I am not acting on them. If it gets really rough I could try first response which this urgent NHS mental health helpline thing.

19-06-2023, 08:42 PM	#242
long road Has less of a life than Pi.R^2 Join Date: Jun 2010 Location: The Ceiling I am currently:	I am managing. Still in pain which won't be helping so going to have some ibuprofen. I know talking to GP would be the sensible thing. I don't know why I am finding it so hard. But I am having good moments in between and with venting here I am coping barely perhaps at times but I am coping. I was waiting to see if it got better. ISometimes it's just a blip and then I feel better. And I am not hallucinating really just struggling a bit with all this extra stress without the outlet of therapy. The hallucinations coming back was the thing I was afraid of and they seem to have dropped off, I am just left on high alert. I don't know what GP could do. If I was properly hallucinating maybe I could get referred to see a psych for the first time in years and we could try and find an antipsychotic which wouldn't effect my prolactin levels. Not sure if one of those exists though. But you can bet if I do get an assessment the CMHT as things are now they will decide not to take me on just like 2016 and 2019. Because I won't be bad enough to meet their criteria. Maybe I could get referred back to my psychologist who I did the year and a half of therapy with but he is in neuro psychology and despite the extra stress I have been doing well with my FND so not sure I would qualify. I am meant to be getting EDMR from his service at some point though and a lot of the stress is asthma related. Maybe I should just open a line of communication with GP and see what he says. Rather than thinking of all the ways asking for help would be futile. I am just not sure it's bad enough to ask for help and put myself through potential rejection from CMHT etc. Might try tomorrow. Suicidal thought snad self harm thoughts pop up for me as a response to stress but I am not acting on them. If it gets really rough I could try first response which this urgent NHS mental health helpline thing.
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