[[Luna]]

Hi all

I feel bad for just reappearing again and immediately asking for help so I'm really, really sorry.
I have DID and I'm in therapy. Recently (over the last few months), parts have been coming forward and talking about what we've gone through to my therapist.
Initially I had information that I struggled to know and live with and made a suicide attempt which resulted in a badly broken leg.

Since then even more information has been brought forward and I don't know what to do with it all.
Apart from my therapist, I don't know who to turn to with all of this but it's so much to hold and process by myself. It all feels too big and too heavy and too scary to tell anyone but I'm trying to manage new triggers, new flashbacks, new horrible feelings towards myself.

My therapist has been using terms that feel too much. They don't feel like they should apply to me. I tried to look up other survivors that may have gone through similar but then it's just too much to read about.
I feel so disconnected and alone from everyone around me. It's making me isolate and have darker thoughts.

I don't know what I want from this. Just not to feel so alone and scared I guess.

Thank you if you've read this, it means a lot.