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long road · 28-05-2023, 02:02 PM

I am struggling mentally but don't quite know how to help myself / what will help. I think the upcoming appointment for my asthma in 9 days and the fact my asthma kept me awake last night have set me off mentally.

I am not having an attack but I feel like I could have an attack and the uncertainty is leaving me afraid and making me look for a way out or a stress relief. And that desperate want not to be in the situation causes suicidal thoughts even though I don't really want to doe. And the stress makes me think maybe the old coping mechanism of self harm might help even for a minute.

I just don't how to deal with it because it's not like an asthma attack is an irrational fear. And the old memories of the hospital and struggling to breathe are haunting me.

I am just stuck. But not having a panic attack or anything it's definitely asthma and being scared.

28-05-2023, 02:02 PM	#162
long road Has less of a life than Pi.R^2 Join Date: Jun 2010 Location: The Ceiling I am currently:	I am struggling mentally but don't quite know how to help myself / what will help. I think the upcoming appointment for my asthma in 9 days and the fact my asthma kept me awake last night have set me off mentally. I am not having an attack but I feel like I could have an attack and the uncertainty is leaving me afraid and making me look for a way out or a stress relief. And that desperate want not to be in the situation causes suicidal thoughts even though I don't really want to doe. And the stress makes me think maybe the old coping mechanism of self harm might help even for a minute. I just don't how to deal with it because it's not like an asthma attack is an irrational fear. And the old memories of the hospital and struggling to breathe are haunting me. I am just stuck. But not having a panic attack or anything it's definitely asthma and being scared.
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