I'm really sorry if implied that people without many scars are not 'real' sel-harmers- this is not an opinion i hold. If someone is hurting themselves, however they do it and to whatever extent, they are feeling a lot of emotional pain and they deserve to get help.
I also don't feel i have 'competition' with other SIers. Seeing this girl's scars didnt make me think 'haha i've got more scars than you i'm obviously a better self-harmer'. It actually really upset me because it makes me feel bad that she has to do that to herself as she is such a lovely person.
I'm not entirely sure what i wanted out of this post, i think it was just reassurance that i'm going to be ok really because the experience really frightened me, seeing how out of control i've got without noticing. However, a couple of days on i think seeing her scars has jolted me back to reality in a strange way and made me realise that i've really got to start trying to recover.
I'm sorry if i offended anyone in anyway. I honestly did not intend to.
Becky xxx
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