Hey,
Firstly, have fun at Centre Parcs. :) Longleat, yeh? The pool there's great, and it'd be a shame for you to miss out on it.
Like someone has said, you could wear shorts to cover up your scars, or some of them at least I'd have thought.
Although, you said you don't want to cover them if you can help it.
Like BeckMo said, they won't be particularly visible whilst you're in the water, and you could always wear a towel as far as you can.
The chances of seeing someone you know again is very slim, and just because you saw someone last time, it doesn't mean the same thing will happen. :)
What is the worst thing that would happen if the people going with you saw your scars? I know it's a scary thought, and I think we can all empathise with you, but at the end of the day, how bad will it be? You have your mum & friend to help you out, if they ask you awkward questions, and suchlike. :) As you've been using the cocoa butter that should help, and their first thoughts are unlikely to be self-harm.
Try and gain strength from your mum, and perhaps confide in her about how it's making you feel, so that she can keep an eye on you and help you out somewhat. Punching things, and hurting yourself, may seem like a good way to cope with things at the time, but remember that they aren't going to fix things, at the end of the day.
It's easy to work yourself over it, and I fully understand, but just think about how bad it could actually be, and the chances are that things will be absolutely fine. Your mum & your friend know, and they're not killing you over it, or anything. :)
Have fun, and take care, xx
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