[DontLookUp]

I could never have imagined getting to 5 years free when I was in the depths of everything, I didn't imagine I'd even still be alive. I have so much healing ahead of me still that it's overwhelming, but I'm just focusing on the day to day and trying to add more good things into my life and learning to pull myself out of dark places a little quicker each time.

My progress has been frustratingly slow and I feel very behind in life because I fell off that standard milestone trajectory a long long time ago, but what I've been through isn't my fault and I try my hardest to remind myself that each of us have our own individual timelines. I'll always be grateful for RYL and for the people on here that made me feel understood and less alone when I had no one else <3

I know sometimes you don't see a way out, it feels impossible and hopeless, and I'm not gonna tell you it gets better because we get told that a lot from people that really don't get it, but I will hold hope for anyone who cannot hold it for themselves the way others have and did for me.