What a chaotic and challenging few years you've had. It seems like there's two bits here- managing feelings/opinions around being at a higher weight than you're used to and managing binging.
What does being at a higher weight mean to you? I realise "don't like being bigger *scowl*" is pretty much the answer, but I don't know if it's worth unpicking that a bit more and talking through it? I think for me it sometimes does; trying to force myself to explain what's uncomfortable and then basically frowning at myself for the fact that all my actual complaints go so badly against everything I believe about fat liberation, body positivity and inspiring others to not be ashamed of their bodies. Not that guilting oneself is really the optimal suggestion here, but like, for me it does help a little bit to try to keep things in perspective???
In terms of binging, are there any other (non-behavioural!) things you've done in the past as coping strategies?
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