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Weight gain
I'm really struggling with my weight and body image.
I have a 2 year old and in pregnancy I had hyperemesis and struggled to put weight on. After that I breastfed my daughter with allergies. She was allergic to foods I was eating so I had to remove her allergens from my diet too which meant I was on a very restricted diet. Coupled with walking for hours a day as it was the only way to get her to stay asleep was to walk led to me losing a lot of weight and getting quite underweight.
Then everything flipped when at 9 months I went into a MBU to start lithium and to stop breastfeeding. I could see the weight going on by the time I left I was no longer underweight. After a few months I was back at my typical weight from here I've gained more and more and more. I'm bigger than I have ever been which is bad enough but to have swung to this point from being underweight is a bit of a mind****
I'm secretly eating crap. I don't do enough exercise but have recently started a Pilates class. Prepregnancy and COVID I was so active but now I'm not. I don't have the energy. I was in my severe pnd depression for 2 years. Family life has been 3 years of chaos and drama. It all takes a lot of headspace and I don't have the emotional skills to deal with it all. Food is where I have always turned but it's so difficult at the moment as it's predominantly binge eating.
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