Thank you for your thoughtful reply!
No I haven't practiced eating without judgement before. I try and 'let go' of preconceived ideas about what I'm eating ('bad foods') but I always judge what I eat. I do practice 'putting it in the past' and concentrating on the future. I used to vomit and exercise compulsively and that does not happen anymore.
As for losing 'control' over what I eat, well- that has happened for 1 and 1/2 months. I understand what you're saying about binging not becoming something I engage in after a while, after allowing myself to do so, but my binges can be desperate attempts to calm an inner storm. It's as if something takes control over me and I eat one thing after another compulsively. I'm not a restrictive eater anymore, I've been eating in moderation for so long, so my 'control' is about getting my healthy eating back on track.
I've never gone through exposure therapy with foods that I was afraid of. I knew that at the beginning of these 1 1/2 months, with the types of foods that were around the house that was causing me anxiety. I decided to 'let go' and allow myself to eat but that turned into a compulsive daily habit, especially when I drink my coffee in the afternoon.
I agree all foods can be part of a healthy diet! and listening to one's body and what one wants is important. I wouldn't ever want to cut out a biscuit! but I binge every day on sugary foods- and although they are not huge binges, they disturb me with how I eat them. My eating behaviour makes me aware of what is going on inside of me- and it's terrible turmoil I'm struggling with.
Your reply was very helpful to help me think about my situation. Thank you.
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