[Blahria]

So I work in mental health, and I'm lucky to work within a very supportive team that is open (where appropriate) with clients about their own experiences.
This is something I feel able to do, to an extent. I can say I've got trauma, I can say I've been depressed, had counselling, take medication.
I can't seem to bring myself to say I'm actively selfharming.
I can't seem to even admit openly that I have in the past.
I have some visible scars on my arms, so I think those more eagle eyed may notice and (hopefully) find it comforting, I know I have.
But all day I'm helping people who are really struggling.
Then I get home and I'm a void, I'm nothing, I'm self harming and binging and struggling to do anything more than exist