So pleased to hear that you've now got such a supportive boyfriend and I hope that over time you'll feel more comfortable being open with him.
I'll just jot down a few ideas that could potentially make it easier to start a conversation:
- typing it rather than saying it in person/on a call
- start by talking about the feelings behind your urges rather than specifically that these feelings are leading you to want to hurt yourself, at least at first
- say something like "remember what you saw on my arms/legs/wherever? I'm starting to feel like tempted by that again", which avoids any of the words which can be hard to say!
It's not at all childish to self harm or have urges to self harm. I remember reading an article about how self-harm had become increasingly common in much older people, which in itself isn't good news or anything, but hopefully at least might reassure you that you're not alone!
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