I know this feeling of being scared but then Wanting more, deeper. It’s very much an addiction thing I think, well that’s how I understand it in myself. I recently also cut after a long time - well done on one month by the way!- and had this exact experience. I wasn’t able to continue SHing because I took myself to someone else’s house where I’m unable to cover it up. I suppose this was my strategy. I don’t know if this can translate for you at all or not but at least know your far from alone in the experience.
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