Thank you both a lot for your replies. I have successfully done the move now and it's been OK and the anxiety has subsided a LOT, thank god.
But I'm still having a lot of dark and scary thoughts. I agree that getting a new GP is important, so I'm in the process of registering for one now. I have some level of private healthcare with my new job so I spoke to a GP and he said that their counselling services are for more low-level problems than mine, but the NHS seem to think I'm not ill enough for support, so I'm in a very strange place!
Even though I'm feeling a little bit better and not immediately scared for my health/life, I really want to work on whatever made my anxiety so bad that I wanted to die so I can make sure it doesn't happen again.
I just want to want to live (if that makes sense) but right now I feel like life is such a series of punches in the gut and then we die.
This was a bit of a ramble haha and I'm not sure there is much to reply to but it was good to write it anyway.
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