Well it's written and sent now. Just need to not think about it too much which will be difficult. I don't think the letter will change anything. I'm feeling hopeless.
Everything is too much right now. Eating, housework, getting out the door. I'll have done less steps this week even though I'm supposed to be keeping them up for the challenge I'm doing with my support worker. I dread everything. The men are lowering the curtain a bit and the followers are screaming again, including my name in the screams which makes it harder to deal with. I don't feel brave enough to phone the informal crisis team, also maybe I shouldn't phone because it might get passed on to the CMHT who will then say 'see you can make phone calls.' I wish my CPN never had to be away from work for so long.
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