I think I do okay in terms of being a contributing member of society. But what I really care about, what I want more than anything is to start a family and be a parent. And I get very discouraged because I can't seem to make any progress towards that goal. Relationships don't last very long, I seem to self-sabotage any that are remotely successful. I suppose I'm afraid that I either don't know how to love or how to accept love. And if I can't manage having a partner, how can I even think about having a family? These thoughts can be both very depressing at times and very distressing at other times.
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