DBT is more about learning skills than bringing up painful things from the past so i dont think that its the therapy making me feel worse and i've felt quite positive that it might work for me until the last couple of weeks. It could just be the time of year but i really dont know. I'm having a lot of suicidal thoughts at the moment and there's noone i can express them to that can do anything about it. I dont know what to do really. I dont feel safe 80% of the time and i feel like i'm looking out through a dark grey mist and my head feels echoey and strange and i've been dissasociating more than normal. My SI has gotten worse. I dont know how i can tell them that when i see them and if they could even do anything more about it. I dont know what else they could do.
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