They have no reason for being disappointed in you - that's an attitude I never considered possible!
Confused, upset, maybe angry (probably mainly confused!) but why should they be disappointed??
And don't worry, I did the same thing with smoking - tried to transfer the addiction and ended up cutting just as much and smoking twice as much as I ever had before..
Everybody has slip-ups.. 34 days is amazing! We all have slip-ups, and anyway, it's just as bad going cold-turkey with SI as it is with smoking or drinking - you can't beat yourself up over it!!!
What you've done is proven to yourself that you can go for 34 days, which is really incredible. From now on you should be perfectly happy if you can make it OVER 34 days; if now it's 40 days until you crack - I'm not saying you will, I'm just trying to offer some advice for if it does go wrong - then you've progressed.
I hope that's a bit helpful :)
PM me if you need to talk xxxxxxxxx
ps just remembered the college bit.. it's up to you if you carry on the course that you don't want to do.. maybe it will be worth it at the end? that's for you to decide :) but at least just tell people to back off and let you do it your own way - they're not helping, they're just making you feel worse!
xxx