Worried about being hospitalized again. Really worried about everything because I'm getting worse and my therapist sends me to the ER at the drop of a hat and they don't let me go easily because I present as a danger to myself no matter what I say. I'm not doing well at all. My life is Crap and I wonder around aimlessly every day with my head down. People call me Sir and I realize the years are flying by and I'm Not living. I look like hell and it matches how I'm feeling inside on the outside. This is not living. I can't go back and get the years back. The hell with everything. Screw it!!!
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