Rain, people use self harm as a method of blanking things out. When emotional pain is too strong we use physical pain as a differnt focus. Its possible that you where not able to get enough physical pain to block ou the emotional pain, so you didnt really feel it, if that makes sense. Kinda like there was still to much emotional pain which stopped you feeling it.
I do this too. I barley remember any pain, when there should be.
Its probably not a good sign hun, it might mean that SI is no longer a working coping stratergy as its not getting rid of all the pain in your life.
Take care
Kim
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