Losing it again. I was doing so much better and then the yard sale happened. I've lost all my friends from my childhood and actual adulthood as well. I sold a good majority of my stuffed animals which I considered my kids and it feels like I killed my friends. I feel so alone even though I am establishing new relationships now that are real people and not just my make-believe friends and it still hurts because they got me through so much. I feel like I have lost something that held me together for so many years. I really want to cut because I feel I deserve to be punished. I've already harming Myself by my eating disorder behaviors and I'm really just struggling not to give into other behaviors as well. I could really use a hug from someone even if it's just a virtual one. Desperately need support.
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