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one_step_closer · 25-05-2019, 06:22 PM

Thanks. I update here quite a lot since most a lot of my issues continue and still fall under intense emotional pain.

I wish someone would take the good parts out of me and leave them in the world if it will help, then kill me.

I kind of just realised my movements aren't just anxious movements, they are around during any kind of discomfort/too much feeling. Labelling them anxious movements isn't actually right.

I'm not a part of this world. I'm not fully human and I need to get to where I belong. Why can't I now seem to do the risky things that I used to do?

There is no hope.

25-05-2019, 06:22 PM	#1315
one_step_closer The Shadow of the Day Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: Scotland	Thanks. I update here quite a lot since most a lot of my issues continue and still fall under intense emotional pain. I wish someone would take the good parts out of me and leave them in the world if it will help, then kill me. I kind of just realised my movements aren't just anxious movements, they are around during any kind of discomfort/too much feeling. Labelling them anxious movements isn't actually right. I'm not a part of this world. I'm not fully human and I need to get to where I belong. Why can't I now seem to do the risky things that I used to do? There is no hope.
	I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much. Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass. You didn't come this far just to come this far.