[Giovanni]

Hi everyone I'm new. And tired I don't know how long I can handle this or how long I can keep somewhat control of my cutting before I go too far. I can't seem to stop. I'm reassured by my blade and panic if I can't find it. I've tried telling myself ill only do one cut but then it winds up being 5, 8 or 10 times no matter how much I've tried or how I promised my boyfriend I'd try to stop. Its wrong but oddly satisfying and I need to stop. I both want and don't want to stop. Can anyone give any goods tips for stopping when you want and don't want to, or general tips for dealing with anxiety. Thank you.