Hey there,
I know what you mean about feeling like you have to do it, even if you don't really need to. I think it is because it's like a comfort to know that we could go back to it at any time.
If you think you are being triggered just because you are nearing 1 month without it, try not to think about that, i know its hard not to. What I would suggest is to write down that date somewhere, so you know that if you ever wanted to know what the date was you could just check, but the idea is to let it slip from your memory. Writing it down may help take away that need to not forget.
I don't have an ED (not saying you do bc I dont know) but after doing a research paper on SI, I have come across information about the relation between the two. As you try to quit and eat properly, you may sway from one decreasing and the other increasing. Although it can be difficult it would probably be best to deal with them both at the same time.
I think you are doing great though. You are said you are eating properly and cutting less, thats a great accomplishment in itself.
If you ever need/want to talk just PM me.
Take care
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