I just want to butt in and mention that I also have moments of sudden anger/violent urges... It IS very upsetting and hard to understand where it comes from as I am not a violent person at all. I think a lot of it is frustration for me but for things entirely separate from the thing that sets it off. Just want to say I understand.
Maybe it would be worth talking about it with someone because clearly your past is still affecting the present in an upsetting way. And they aren't the sort of impulses that you should be having especially with your daughter (not saying you'd ever hurt her, but she just might pick up on it).
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